Thursday, September 13, 2012

Q: Hi! Let's be friends. *pulls hair*

To my thirteen year old self,

Hi Yvonne, this is yourself in ten years, Yvonne! Standing in the future of you, rather than behind in the past by your side, and writing this letter is a novel feeling that I still need time getting use to. But I always believe in practice makes perfect (I’m sure you do too, if not mom will have something to say about it), and with fingers crossed, let’s just hope this one habit sticks around. Sometimes I couldn’t tell apart memories from reality and followed behind you in my dreams when times get rough. As expected, I’m more comfortable being you, laughing so hard and playing with the one best friend you believe will stay with you forever. That *ahem* I won't go spoiling the surprise for you.

I’ve never told you this before; even though I’m a lot older now, I can’t help but to admire your soon to be ambitious self. That part of you always gave me courage when I feel intimidated. You encouraged me. Before I knew it, ten years passed and a lot of things have happened, I also didn’t know we would be writing to one another again this way. Truth to be told, I’m kind of wallowing in sadness at the moment. Even though I can definitely see you and count on your mischievous nature to cheer me on, I still feel sad for some reason…you know what I’m talking about, right? For some reason, that distance between us seemed further these days now that I’m busy being an adult, talking like one and thinking like one, to a point it gets bl**dy tiring.

To other people, you’re just a small child who knows and care for nothing, but to me, you’re Yvonne, a caterpillar waiting to burst out from its cocoon, a young’in who is always loyal. Let’s not think of this future as a murky one and I'm not saying it is. No matter what, I’m always by your side…isn’t this statement a little creepy? People are gonna think I have bipolar now. Haha^^ Terrible. Whenever you’re itching to grow up, come find me and I’ll take you on a tour. I would however, appreciate it if you don’t ask what am I planning on doing once I’m done with Master’s. Ask me again in two years’ time. That my friend, is to be your standard way of replying to questions such as “when are you planning on getting married?” Mental note ya?

Although I won’t be able to see you as often as I do in the past years, I’ll always remember and cherish you. I thank you for being with me…it was fun. I hope we keep these feelings we have for each other forever. Also, I'll work hard for your future, promise.

P/s: Don’t worry about boys, seriously. Some bad decisions have to be made to grow up.

I love you.

Yvonne Sing

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