Saturday, October 30, 2010

Q: Why have you been nervous today?

Well, the thing is, it’s Halloween in the US today. People come out walking on the streets decked in various kinds of strange characters or objects. Yes, I saw a banana and a chef standing by the traffic light. The sight is fascinating and it’s only been the second time I’ve experienced this youthful parade. A grim reaper, an Avatar couple, two policemen, some cowboys, and maybe…wait, is that a werewolf?! No good. I’m getting dizzy from the flashing red blue of a neighboring cop car. Damn, someone’s getting busted tonight. Then again, this is the every weekend scene of the Fraternity Village near where we’re staying. Students are often caught partying with their pants down!

I have been twitching a lot today. My legs wouldn’t stop shaking and I spaced out too much that it irritated some roommate of mine. What concerned me is not so much on missing the spooky seasonal celebration (by not dressing up); but rather the nervousness was for those in Malaysia. While I party Halloween-style at the Berryhill-Hampton-Robert’s residence at the Seville, my kawaii kohai-chans are facing a gruesome battle.

As you may have known, AniManGaki is an event I founded along with the club that organizes it. Today marks the test of their efforts; and I prayed for them (normally I don’t, because I don’t pray), wishing smooth sailing of the event and that they have the time of their lives. I want them to know that with hard work beckons great success. Even the shittiest of situation can turn for the better if proper attention is given and things are taken seriously.

At 1pm, the crowd spanned to 1000 units. I grew ecstatic at their achievement! The event resembled a seed that this skybird dropped in the middle of a forest and despite the natural forces trying to stop its advances, AniManGaki stood fast against the wind. Soon, it is going to dominate the industry. Tough call, but it’s a pleasant thing to know that my kohai-chan’s are there making it happen.

To my fellow comrades, ganbatte yo! The Shodaime will want to hear plenty of good news in the morning. The goal is not to be the best, but to overcome expectations. In my option, the expectation has already shattered as I type these words down with gusto. You people has proven your determination (especially Miss Jane and Hibiki, of course) and I’m sure you all deserved the credit.

So much for getting worked up, Hibiki kept his side of the deal; after all he “didn’t let the team down and pulled through to the end.” Thank you, bro.

*updated* AniManGaki 2010 reached its ultimate high of 1600 visitors!!

Wishing I could be there once again,
Vonnie S.

Q: Why this new blog? The old one's not good enough?

I get that a lot from friends ever since I made the rather hesitant decision to lock my old journal. They get extremely frustrated that their accesses into my xanga account were disbelievingly denied and they ranted about it. They made things clear with you on the phone, through Skype, on Facebook, short text messages and often times, having it popped out of conversations in unexpected places. Honestly, I did not count the numbers of followers I have; nor do I keep track of the number of blogs I follow. Either way, I am very honored and flattered to have people around who care to read about the things I write. (Although most of them are plain crap anyway.)

I created this new blog on a basis of several reasons. Reasons that might not mean a thing to you, or they might sound irrelevant. But then again, this is MY blog, so if no one else gives a damn, you shouldn’t too.

Reason #1
Prior to leaving Malaysia, I read through many of the posts I put online. As I go through each of them thoroughly, there is an accumulated need in me, to leave them all behind. My childhood rants, teen angst, nonsensical wisdom and the many wonderful moments boxed up nicely with a ribbon and placed into the closet of a distant memory. They remained important, as a sign of progress and change in conscious. Basically, a great study material for future reference in the field of Psychology.

Reason #2
While I am still lovingly titled ywsmokona, I wish to remain mostly anonymous in this blog. Well, not as a way to get away from responsibility over the things I write or say, but it is just a sign that I have stalkers lah. WTH.

Reason #3
This new blog will work to my advantage as a journal pointing toward signs that I have reached a new turning point in life. The happenings in the US and the feelings I have left in Malaysia. This chapter deserves an equal attention and wishes to gain its significance. Also, my lecturer thinks writing a page a day will help improve writing skills. Let’s just hope he’s right.

Reason #4
I am trying to not procrastinate on my duties (though often so, shit happens) as my professor puts it; writing a blog post once every day will allow me to collect discipline habits and often so, the punishment includes placing a dollar into the donation box for the poor. Psychology can really give you the extra kick in the rear end on this. No kidding.

Reason #5
Twas all things new will give me that built-in reinforcer (layman term: motivation), I am able to put things into a much better perspective, and like the old Chinese saying goes, “new brooms sweep clean”. Well, I’ll try my best not to make blogging this time, just another honeymoon phrase.

First post so far!
Vonnie S.