Q: Lei meh si ka zan?

Found this buried in the cabinet. A letter I addressed to myself when I was 13 years old. It must have been an awkward moment and after a decade, I thought it was lost forever. I laughed at the word choices and sentence structures, but I really want to let my young self know that I am proud of her.

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Dear 23 year old Yvonne Sing,

In ten years time, I want you to read this and remember what you were at thirteen; the cutest thing in the world (your friends and daddy can tell you that), you had ambitions and many good friends.

You were scared of life and at times, of what other people thought about you and you did let many things put you down. You get nervous for school and pretended to fall sick twice to avoid PJK. Pn. Punitha is a very nice teacher to have believed you for saying that. 

You thought your friends were the best people in the world and that you can rely on them no matter what. But you worried for your friendship, something feels bad and once, you cried at night because you don’t know what to do. 

You don’t want people to know. So you lived your life carefree, meeting people and making them happy. You never liked making decisions, and you feel best in your own world alone. 

Whether you are a doctor like you wanted or an author like you dreamed to be, or just a business woman working for money, I hope you enjoy what you are doing. Whether by 23 years old, you are still single or have a good boyfriend who cares for you as much as you care for him, I want you to be happy. (I hope he is kind and caring and likes horses too.)

Remember me, I will try my best in Saujana, I will make many friends forever, I will be hardworking, I will not care about what people say, I will improve a lot, and I will be who I want to be.

I hope mummy, daddy, and Sean are together and happy like one big family. I love them a lot and I hope you do too. Mummy can be fierce at times, I am scared of her but learn to get along like normal please. 

I hope you are proud of what you hope to or have achieved. I hope you love your life.

From,
13 year old Yvonne Sing